2021

 Oh boy.. Happy New Year! Let all hope we are allowed to have a new year, and not just a repeat of last year. Last year was full of so many endings... Even then, however, beginnings surfaced. 

This year, 2021, my life is going to change so much I don't even know where to start. I'm leaving Hurricane Coffee,  moving across the nation, getting my first apartment, surrounded by faces I couldn't even begin to know. I'll be freshly married, thousands of miles away from my family, learning to navigate military life, as well as life in Florida, and I honestly have no idea what I am doing. 

The future Mrs. Wisor is not feeling so wise right now. 

So many big changes, all happening so fast. It's easy to get overwhelmed. I have been so caught up in solving problems that I am forgetting to enjoy the solutions, or even just the moments between the problems. Constantly stressing about the next step and what I need to be doing in four days and my calendar is filling up with "appointments" that are actually just hang outs that I had to plan like an appointment because otherwise I won't make time. 

Oh, and the moments between when I am at work or having an "appointment" and I have down time? They are awful and I try to pack them with other busy work things and I can't help but wonder.... Why? 

Why am I so busy? So desperate to be so busy. Maybe I'm just trying to ignore the fact that I miss Billy, or Bruce, or I'm trying to distract myself from the endless amount of time before Billy gets back from Japan (still no date). Or maybe I'm anxious about being married so I'm stressing about getting married. 

I'm running myself so thin, refusing to take a moment and breathe. It pretty much takes me being in lots of physical pain, or sick, to get me to stop. So,  2021 hit and I realized that I had friends at my house and people in my life to enjoy time with, and I was in the little office of my brain, working. Stressing. Fretting.

 So hello, its day two and I am breaking my to-dos down to a monthly list that I am turning into daily or weekly tasks and then I don't have to worry about it after I accomplish it. The Bible says I can't add a day to my life by stressing, and sometimes I catch myself feeling like if I'm not stressed, then I am not giving it the appropriate importance. However, that's not true. 

Crazy how one day, one moment you can be blind with anxiety and stress and you feel like you're going to drown and you feel like you have no help and you are trying to accomplish all these things at once and you're all alone, and the next you're like "oh dang I need to chill" 

I'm still clueless about literally everything that has to do with everything I am doing this year, but at least I know I will be figuring it out, a day at a time. 

That all being said, time is short, my months are filling up and before I know it, I will be Georgetta Wisor and I'll be living on a beach, 3000 miles away from all of my friends and family. So even if its just a cup of coffee in the morning, or a lunch, lets do something. Lets catch up and spend some time, just talking and enjoying time and life together. Before you know it, time will be up. Spend it wisely